I FORGIVE YOU

Look, under no circumstances will I blame you for any of this happening. It's not your fault. Understand that, you have no control over these type of situations. Forgive yourself for the blame you given yourself. 

You have the knowledge to accept the things you can not change, and now I hope you have the strength to change the things that you can. What's most important, is that you have the difference between the two.

The world is not ending, it's just a bad day. You're full of life and you deserve peaceful mornings, and quiet evenings just like everyone. I'm sorry you had to think otherwise. 

Accepting the reality of things is a hard pill to swallow, and coming to terms with the reality of things is even harder, now that you have the digest and process it all. Everyone will tell you it'll get better, but you more than anyone should know that it'll get worse before it gets better. Yes, it'll get worse than this but don't give up yet. 

You've always been a testimony and you'll live long enough to tell your story. Allow these experiences to shape you. Don't let them break your psyche. 

It'll be okay. I forgive you, and I hope you're unlearning all the hurt and hate..

Near Deathblow

What now, now that he has reached his wit's end ?

What more is there to learn if all there is, is just suffering and hurting?

Reality has hit, and he is near the edge,

Near deathblow. 

He's always been a dreamer, a dream chaser.

He's ridden out all the dream ponies that have come to mind,

but now the stallion of nightmares is standing outside his window.

He's sad, and he's losing grasp of joy and simple happiness.

I fear he's near deathblow.

What's good for him?

What's meaningful when all is being lost?

When the rhythm of life has become noise and discord?

What's purpose, when sanity is being tested ?

What wrong did he do in his previous lives?

He aches.

Your way Back

I left my heart open,
Hoping you'll find your way,
Back, into my life,

Don't rush it,
Take your time,
One, step at a time,

Dreaming

Stuck,
In a long going dream.
Sing,
All your sorrows away.
Joy,
Is all you're striving for.
Music,
Is the only medication.

Because this feels like I'm dreaming forever,
Where I stand,
How it feels,
It's just a dream.

My Flaws and I

I've seen you,

And I have you,

But I've never understood you.

Still, I try to embrace you.

Here you are,

Between happiness and me.

How can I love you?

I've been bullied,

And yes, I've thought of suicide .

Cried myself to sleep,

Insomnia,

headaches,

Just because I was different.

Different, because of you.

Still, I try to embrace you.

Am I really special?

Or just unfortunate..

Nevertheless, that's just my flaws and I,

Trying to make end.

In the end it's still going to be,

My flaws and I.

Take A Hint

It's been said ,

yet you don't understand.

Can't you listen ?

Or maybe,

You can't take a hint,

A hint of any kind.

It's been done,

And it's been shown,

Can't  you see it ?

Or maybe ,

You can't face facts,

Facts that are reality.

You've promised yourself,

To never fall back,

But you still do.

Why can't you learn?

Or maybe,

You are too weak,

Too weak to handle rejection.

Can't You read between the lines?

Learn to take a hint,

A hint of any kind.

Face facts,

And be strong.



Might Go Insane

I keep on running from myself,
Looking for somewhere safe,
To lay all my thoughts.

I keep forgetting who I am,
Burying all I have , away,
Looking for comfort, in a war zone.

Call me crazy, Call me a psycho
Cause there are times ,
When I keep losing my mind,

I keep stressing out,
On things beyond my control.

And I keep losing my mind,
I might go insane,
For the things that don't matter.

I keep trying to tell myself,
That its good at the end,
At the end,
I might go insane.