I FORGIVE YOU

Look, under no circumstances will I blame you for any of this happening. It's not your fault. Understand that, you have no control over these type of situations. Forgive yourself for the blame you given yourself. 

You have the knowledge to accept the things you can not change, and now I hope you have the strength to change the things that you can. What's most important, is that you have the difference between the two.

The world is not ending, it's just a bad day. You're full of life and you deserve peaceful mornings, and quiet evenings just like everyone. I'm sorry you had to think otherwise. 

Accepting the reality of things is a hard pill to swallow, and coming to terms with the reality of things is even harder, now that you have the digest and process it all. Everyone will tell you it'll get better, but you more than anyone should know that it'll get worse before it gets better. Yes, it'll get worse than this but don't give up yet. 

You've always been a testimony and you'll live long enough to tell your story. Allow these experiences to shape you. Don't let them break your psyche. 

It'll be okay. I forgive you, and I hope you're unlearning all the hurt and hate..